Words Behind Silence - Chapter 3

He said, “Try to understand. Think from their shoes. Before this, she was just your friend, nothing to do with your life. But now she is someone more than that. You are not in a position to hurt her. She is my sister, and they are just worried about their brother. How would you feel if you had a younger brother? That’s why they are reacting this way. Before you entered, we were a strong trio, and they are worried this trio would break because of this relationship.”

Of course, I understand all this.

But deep within, my thoughts keep asking—am I collapsing their trio?

I never wanted to join into that trio or make it a quartet. I never wished for that.

All I wanted was for them to see me the same way I see them.

I am not trying to be nice to them just because of this relationship.

I still see her the same way I did before—

as a good friend, a dance partner, a sister.

She didn’t act differently towards me;

she tries to stay normal, but I miss the aura.

I just feel like I’m the fool here.

He says they do this because they care about their brother,

because he is part of the best trio.

I understand that too.

But deep inside, I feel something else—

he has people who care about his emotions, his feelings, his relationship.

Who do I have?

I’m just standing alone—with him.

Yes, I am blessed that he stands by my side,

balancing both sides.

But still, I feel excluded.

Sometimes, I wonder—if I had a brother

who cared for my feelings the same way,

would this relationship have felt different?

Would it have been easier?

I’m not against their care for their brother,

or their bond as a trio.

They don’t need to add me into it.

But at least, they could genuinely see me

the same way they saw me before.

Now I carry this guilt—

like I disturbed something pure,

something that once had its own rhythm.

The place where my whole heart once was

now feels half-hearted,

but I keep acting whole-hearted.

I feel excluded.

I don’t feel that genuine aura anymore.

But still—

I am ready to bear all this

just for my man,

because he stands by my side

all the time.

And that’s enough for me to stay.