In the Self Realization – Chapter 1

He asked me, “Have you ever had anyone keep trust on you before?”

I stayed silent for a moment. Then I said, “I don’t remember anyone keeping trust on me.”

I only remember people saying things like — you don’t have ability, you don’t have IQ, you don’t have the tendency, you are not capable of doing this.

So I said, “No.”

He looked at me and said, “That is what makes you like this. You are always searching for reasons, not answers. Since no one has kept trust on you, you always search for comfort. You are not sure of yourself. You are afraid of accountability — not taking accountability. That is what makes you like this. You are not ready to face problems but keep running away from them, always searching for reasons inside your comfort zone, and not trying to find answers.”

His words stayed in my mind. Later, I thought deeply about it. And then I remembered — Happy Feet.

My professor, Phebe Ma’am, once told me, “I trust you. I know you can do this.”

She supported me in every way. She really kept her trust on me. She believed in me blindly.

Happy Feet went well. After every event, she told me, “You did a very good job.” She always trusted me. Whenever any obstacle came, Ma’am just said, “I trust you.”

She even faced many struggles for me. And at that moment, I realized — maybe I am not difficult. Maybe I just didn’t see the people who already believed in me.

Then I remembered how, whenever obstacles came, Phebe Ma’am was always ready to face them. Problems got solved because she faced them, while I just stood there, not knowing what to do. I stood by giving up — but she fixed things by facing them.

This is my self-realization — I was trusted, loved, and supported. I just had to look back to see it.

And finally, he said, “I trust you.”